It’s been hella long time since I wrote a blog, unfortunately for my readers I’m not consistent but hey I have a life so ya know. I’m feeling reflective at the moment and it might come in handy for some folks out there.
20’s, damn these years are hard! You might be 30’s, 40’s, 50’s or even 60’s! And think mate it doesn’t get any easier, which is disappointing but I can only speak from the young mind right now. I mean I’m doing my counselling diploma and whilst I appreciated it was going to be hard, I didn’t anticipate the part where it takes over my life. Plus I left my job, yes that’s right I chose to go, so yes it’s my fault I added another pressure on top of that. However, moving out! Jesus Christ, that shit is another level kind of stress. Trying to do all these things at once, I’m surprised my hair hasn’t fallen out.
As we are all connected through this world of social media 24:7, we are constantly updated with what every one is doing and of course they are going to be achievements. Why wouldn’t you want to share that? It’s an amazing milestone in your life, new job, having a baby, engaged, getting married, brought a house, a new car, a lavish holiday (Sheesh!). I don’t know about everyone else, but that’s a lot of pressure to live up to. I’m trying to save my butt off to move out at the moment and all I see around me is people moving out. I’m training to be a counsellor and all I see is everyone becoming a counsellor and the damn competition I’ve got when I’m finished. I hope you get the jist of where I’m coming from, stay with me now if you don’t!
You never really know what’s round the corner, I mean my dream right now would be to have my own house with my own little family. But for whatever reason, I’m not quite ready for that yet, you have to wait for the best things in life and when you do get them, they are so damn worth it. I got the best surprise a few weeks ago and was asked to be my friends sons godmother, I cried lol! But it was special to me and it made me feel like I’m finally growing up and on my way to everything I want and that child is so damn lucky haha!!
No matter where you are in your life, your going to constantly compare yourself to the person who’s doing exactly what your fighting for. It brings a whole load of ugly emotions, jealously, hatred (yes I’m extreme), bitterness and most importantly self doubt! You start to panic, omg am I ever going to achieve this? why is everyone else always ahead of me? I’m such a failure! Thing is love, it is all ahead of you, just a different pace, and funny thing is someone is right behind you thinking the same thing about you! When you go on holiday, or move out or have a baby, someone else is looking at you hoping to have that very thing or at least working towards it. Once you have it, you stop comparing but then you start wanting something else and the cycle continues.
Sounds exhausting I know! So whether your in your 20’s like myself! (Hiya) or even in your 30’s, 40’s or 50’s, be kind to yourself, give yourself a break and remember to enjoy the present. These things will all come when the time is right, have a bit of faith, hope and positivity but most importantly, remember to enjoy the moment!