I’m not going to lie I’m completely unmotivated and totally in negative nelly mode, but I thought I would push myself to write something other than hide under my duvet like a lost puppy.
I had to say goodbye to my best friend yesterday, he’s off to join the Royal Marines and I won’t see him again for another 5 weeks when I go down for families day and he comes home for the weekend. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, for both of us. Neither of us want to be a part but I know it’s something he’s always dreamed of.
I can’t really put into words how much I love that kid, he’s my happy place and complete rock. I often see girls saying what they want in a boyfriend/future husband and I’ve been lucky enough to find all of those things in one bloke.
This year is going to see so many big changes, he’s going off to train in killing people whilst I’m going to train in helping them. Odd match I know, but hey opposites attract right? Haha
People have been a major problem with their insensitive comments and asserting their opinions where there not wanted. I’ve had to refrain from telling people where to go because they feel the need to be negative towards how I live my life.
Has it ever crossed my mind to leave him? Of course it has, I would be lying if I said I didn’t struggle to warm up to the idea of being apart of long periods of time in training. The reason I haven’t….. love, pure and simple, he’s my best friend and partner in crime. As soppy as it sounds I wouldn’t change a thing about it him. Whatever happens I’m confident we will always remain a strong couple.
Don’t get me wrong it can all go wrong, he might not make it through training as negative as that sounds. Royal Marines are the elite force, their drop out rate is really high, about 50 recruits join and as little as 8 will pass out at the end. It just gives you an idea of how tough it really is. It’s apparently the hardest military training in the world. I don’t doubt that we won’t make it as a couple because no one can pull us apart. No one knows what our relationship is about or how it is, we’re a team. I miss him more than you can imagine, his smell, his hugs, his company, his laugh and his absolute belief in me. The journey ahead is going to be horrendous that’s for sure.
I could of totally shot myself in the foot writing this and you could see this post being deleted in the future as if it never existed haha but I’m prepared to take the risk because I have faith in us. I have no idea what the future holds, but who does, so here’s to new begginings, whatever that may bring, marine or not I’ll always be proud, whatever he chooses to do.